Michael Jackson- It Began With God

Saturday, May 24, 2014

It Began With God
It Began With God

I like that title... You may be wondering - what began with God - though the truth is everything in the world, universe and all creation began with God I'm talking about other things like my faith and love for Michael Jackson. In so many ways they are merged beyond which I can find a way to explain so I wont even try but what I will say is I recall when I was a small child and there was something special I'd noticed about Michael Jackson- he had a light in him other adults didn't have... Something children had but adults seemed to have lost somehow. I can't say for sure what I thought it was but I can say it's that beauty you see beyond beyond like looking at a baby and just seeing that light within. That was part of Michael Jackson and it was so beautiful, his voice also had this special element to it where as a child I couldn't begin to give description of but now I will say his voice is anointed- God blessed and truly anointed. I can recall times of sadness in my childhood where I will be honest with you - whoever reads this family, friends- whoever my childhood was sad and there were times that I was so emotionally filled with pain that I wanted my life to end and contemplated ending it myself. I use to honestly look at a drawer with pills in it and some old rusted butcher knife considering my options. I know that sounds morbid but the truth gets that way at times and that's what I'm giving you hear the truth as morbid as it sounds. I was suicidal around the age of 7. Maybe some people don't think I should be saying that but I think it's important for people to know- not about me but for the sake of their children and their emotions- so people will understand there is a very real spiritual battle that not only you face but children as well are faced with every single day and right now I can tell you the greatest attack satan launched at me was to tell me that I wasn't loved. I am the youngest in my family and often times my siblings wanted to play games and do stuff I was too young for so I'd be excluded, I was called names which they say all children deal with but eventually that and other things towered over my small spirit and death constantly knocked at my door. I remember even though I didn't know what a demon was or the holy spirit I can recall times when like a temptation- or good angel bad angel seemed to like in those cartoons on either side of me offering me right or wrong choices- one saying you don't have to hurt just stop caring and another assuring me God loved me and for me to keep loving others- keep caring...


Well needless to say I chose to listen that good guidance that pointed me to God and His will for my life- a will rooted and grounded in love and that's where I reside or at least try to. I say try because I don't always follow good guidance but I try to but I can say I do pursue love always and speaking of love and God's guidance and Michael Jackson I wanted to mention how the anointing God placed in Michael's voice is one of love. I remember many, many times when I was still a child and I would crying out to God and about to take my life from being overwhelmed with so much misery and every single time I'm not lying to you from somewhere I'd hear Michael's voice being played somewhere in the house or I'd turn the radio on and there he'd be- usually it was the song Ben or I'll Be There that was playing. I didn't realize his voice was anointed I just knew he comforted me. From that experience I can greatly understand how David comforted Saul's soul when he played for him- but I'm not Saul. I was just a young child who barely knew God's word however in my isolation if you will from the times my siblings didn't make time for me- so often I'd be drawn to read the bible but let me tell you when I first began to read the bible it was after reading an interview Michael Jackson did I believe with "Right On" magazine and he spoke about the bible- I remember thinking my mom has one of those, I went picked it up opened it and began reading- I recall words of what I perceived to be God's protection- maybe there were many promises that I read and believed but I remember saying I believe that and ever since God has watched over me. I think what I read was the words of accepting Christ as Lord, I remember my mom coming in the room and seemed angry- she asked me in a very you're about to be in so much trouble tone demanding to know what I was doing with that referring to the bible- I replied "reading it" and she turned and walked away. I was so relieved and said to myself excitedly it works- well I may have said it aloud but I was so happy I didn't get cursed out or hit. I kept reading the bible, slept with one, prayed A LOT and still pray A LOT. I like to pray mostly when other people aren't around- when I can focus on God and His Holy Spirit's presence. I love knowing He loves me and just smiling at knowing He's there and cares... I love to sing worship too- not really in choir or anything like that but when I'm alone with Him- sometimes though it's nice to worship Him with others. I've done so singing in choir before but there's nothing like alone time with God.

As I was saying it began with God I meant well... guess I did mean everything but God revealed himself to me and used Michael Jackson to do so in something so simplistic as his mentioning he reads the bible- that moved me to pick one up but it was God who drew me in and my heart yielding and repetitively going back. Many "celebrities" don't talk about God and many who do well there are a lot of people who will make you wonder if they love God or not what they do doesn't show His love at all- but I'm not judging. Michael however- his love for God showed- in actions and words- in his heart and his deeds- in his faith...




Posted by Sharon Sidney at 12:42 PM